Originally Posted by 2JZ
Ive browsed this thread for a while. Always wondered when I'd post up. Feels like a good time.
I have been a daily drinker (vodka/whiskey) for 15-20 years. I don't get pass out drunk, but do have a few drinks a night. Whiskey on the rocks lately. Its not a lot (compared to some here), but amounts to a 750ml bottle every 3 days. Always in the evening after dinner. In the last month I think Ive only missed 3 days.
The voice in my head says "hey you don't really drink that much compared to many other people" and "Its probably not why you feel like shit all the time". But I know that amount of alcohol is bad. ANY alcohol is bad. I know that, but just keep drinking every night.
So last night I was exhausted after a long day at work, and crashed out early. So Ive already got one day under my belt. Gonna try for two.
I am really afraid to quit for good. I do enjoy it, and have never gotten in trouble with alcohol, but at this point I'd really just like to give it up during the week, and enjoy a few on Fri/Sat. I know I'd feel better overall. I also know I should give it up for good. We'll see. At this point I'm just shooting for 48 hours with no alcohol.
I hope that posting here will make me feel somewhat accountable for my actions. Its easy just to sit back with some ice cold Knob Creek and read your posts, and say I'll start tomorrow....
Congratulations on your decision! That's huge.
I agree that AA meetings are designed to hold you accountable for your actions, and that doesn't always work for everyone. However, this thread acts in the same way I believe, and probably better because this no BS forum kicks it up a notch and it seems a higher level of accountability IMO.
It's on the honor system obviously but no less effective as everyone will be called on their bullshit should it be warranted. People I met in AA meetings didn't have my respect like those on this board. I have no idea why.
The fact that so many here have been following along thinking, 'I might need to re-evaluate my relationship with alcohol', and subsequently following through with posting, speaks volumes that it's working.
The fact that anyone has been reading and follows along is proof that they realize THEMSELVES that there needs to be a reboot on their relationship with alcohol. Be it never again, or taking a break and finding how you will adapt to less consumption, it's all good.
Everyone is different.
Unlike others who have shared, I quit counting the days after a few months.
To me it just seemed like I was reliving the thoughts that I needed to get away from drinking in a negative way, and not treating it like a lifestyle. Which it needed to become.
Similar to weight loss, You count every calorie and beat yourself up for every pound. Once you hit your target weight you quit most of that brain noise and subsequently it becomes your new lifestyle. That's where everyone here needs to be with alcohol and however long it takes for you to reach that point, is how long you need to do whatever you need to do and feel comfortable doing.
Keep on keeping on everyone! Your new self and lifestyle is yours for the taking.