Originally Posted by COcamper
If I needed an excuse to have a drink to try to unwind/calm the nerves, I've got a few, but I will not give alcohol the satisfaction of winning this battle.
The highlight of those past 8 days: 12/15 was 11 months without booze for me. So as I mourn the loss of a friend, wonder what the future might hold for my BIL, and pray that all is well with my daughter, I know there is ONE thing I have control over, and dammit, I will keep control of that.
This is kind of what keeps me going. Saying I'm beating it doesn't matter but saying how LONG I've made it MY bitch seems to. I actually had a random ass dream last night that I had a drink with some friends and thought, in my dream, "yeah two weeks is good. I'm fine. Plus it's just this one drink because it's special." because a bottle of Weller Special Reserve (unavailable here) actually arrived at my doorstep (thanks Pirate 4x4).
The dream was the weird thing because when I woke up I was thinking how easy it would be to cheers at Christmas or New Years. It also reminded me of food dreams I had during Whole 30. At least I'm still spending money on liquor I might not drink so the wasteful spending is still there.
fireLt. There is a marathon just outside Vegas at the end of April. Revel Mt, Charleston. Winter is apparently a GREAT time to train for a marathon. I think it helps us stay warm or something. I'll talk running all day long and if you want encouragement I can direct you to some non-pirate like running forums.