Originally Posted by stjames151
Where’s the formicarium update fucker?
Fuck. I know. I owe you all an update. Its been a minute.
Originally Posted by crispins
Well I fucked up I guess.
After right around 18 mths without a drink I thought it would be a fine idea to have a couple 'now and then'
Well that turned into about 5 weeks of drinking almost everyday and gaining damn near 20 lbs.
Fuck that, felt like total shit.
Went back to eating right and not drinking, feeling much better already.
I guess it was a bit of a wake up and confirmation that I really can't drink like normal people.
Shit is shitty but it is what it is.
Originally Posted by 78bronco460
You did some “research” and found out what many of us have: you keep doing what you always did, you keep getting what you always got. What amazes me is how after a substantial time of being sober how quickly I could get to where I left off or worse. Welcome back.
Yeah. In my three final years of drinking before achieving two full years without drinking, I had many 30, 60, 90 day attempts.
I would start feeling good. Decide to try and moderate my drinking.
It didn't work. I would slip right back to where I was in a matter of weeks or months at most.
I know what it looked like to research early in sobriety. I can't imagine what would happen to me if I tried to go back out now. I had to overcome a lot of FEAR to get sober. All kinds of fears I never knew were dominating my thinking.
But now, the only real fear I have left is a fear of what I will do to myself, and my life, if I drink again. Its a healthy fear to have, and one I am glad I have.
If you slip and go back out, its ok. I tried to quit drinking starting in 2013. It took me until 2017 to get it to stick. But I didn't give up. Now you know the consequences of what happens when you revert back to old behavior. You slip and slide right back to where you were. Remember it. And keep trying.
Some of us are just wired differently. We can go years or decades without alcohol causing significant problems. Then one day, it stops working as intended. It becomes a problem. And no matter how much we try, we can't drink like other people.