Originally Posted by Roc Doc
How'd it go Woody?
I choked at the wedding. We had rented a house in Scottsdale. That morning I stopped by Costco and got the big bottle of Knob Creek. Snuck it into the freezer and made myself some drinks during the day. By like 7pm I was pretty lit. Ended up falling asleep on my bed and didn't wake up til the next day. Fawk I felt like such a dumbass. Been beating myself up over it ever since.
I had drank about a 1/4 of the bottle that day. After that I tried drinking it some evenings, but really wasn't into it. I took the bottle with me out the desert last weekend ago to party with friends. Felt like shit the next day.
After that it was almost gone. But it was still in the cooler just outside my bedroom door on the patio. I finished it off, a swig or two at a time, on Friday night. But I just wasn't into it. Friday night there was 2-3 glasses left (I liked it over crushed ice straight out of the freezer). Yesterday morning I felt like shit again.
I'm done. As Ive tapered off Ive noticed I'm thinking much more clearly. And of course waking up actually feeling rested, despite only getting a few hours of sleep each night. I feel more rested after 4 hours of sober sleep then I do with 8 hours of drunken sleep.
So today is day 2 of sobriety. I have no real desire to drink tonight. It feels good to not be in a haze all day (even though I rarely drank during the day). I look forward to waking up tomorrow feeling better then I do today.
To satisfy my cravings I've been on the sparkling water over a glass of crushed ice in the evenings. I mix a little 7up or grenadine with it. I like to crunch on the ice and it seems to be enough to satisfy my cravings. Even when I'm stuck in front of my computer doing invoicing and scheduling til midnight, trying to keep my business running. Thats when I drank before.
As a bonus my wife has backed way off her drinking. I hope she can get hers under control and quit for good. It would make it easier on me for me, and vice versa. She's an alcoholic just like I'm an alcoholic. We've been drinking nightly since before we were married 33 years ago.
Feb 4th 2018 I fell off a 9' wall and broke my back in 6 places. Fucked me up good. I got back on the Oxycodone then, and didn't stop until last Sunday when I ran out of my script a week early. I messaged my doc and asked for a Suboxone script to help with the withdrawals. I took that last week while withdrawing from those evil little pills. So today I am clean and sober, off the pills and the alcohol. Today is the first day Ive been completely sober in probably 10 years. Ive had back problems for many years after a car accident, and have been off and on the pills pretty much for the last 10 years.
It feels good. I think I'm gonna keep it going....