|Today 04:11 AM|
About to run a marathon at 7am. Woke up at 1:30 am instead of 3:45 and wouldn’t have it any other way. If you’re bored google California International marathon. I’ll be out there today aiming for under 3 hours for the marathon. No way I’d feel this good if I was still pounding beers and had to take a week off to sober up for this race.
Saw my wife’s aunt pass out on the couch Friday night. Made me realize what my wife had to deal with for years. Not judging her. I just know how tired it would get having to turn the TV off, put a blanket on, and know it’s going to happen again another night of the week. Not sure I’d put up with me like my wife does/did.
|11-29-2019 02:31 PM|
I’m convinced if I was still drinking my wife would have packer her shit and left this year. I am pretty sure I heard her tell me three different times she didn’t want to make me choose but she would. I don’t want my kid to have the relationship with his father I have with mine.
At least that is one thing I have absolute control over.
|11-29-2019 10:58 AM|
It's nice to never wake up with a pounding head and go through the day in a hungover fog. It's nice to know that now every decision made is one that is *rational with sober clarity.
Being sober reminds me of when I was a kid, when everything seemed more innocent, fun and exciting.
I'm convinced that if I was drinking, I would have lots of fights with the wife. Not that there's anything wrong with her, we're just on opposite political teams.
* I still make some irrational decisions but they are, at least not influenced by alcohol
|11-29-2019 10:06 AM|
When I started drinking I hated alcohol. I would pour half my drink down the sink at parties so i could fit in. It was a long slow process becoming fully alcohol dependent. But the time came when i could no longer face the morning without a drink. I had come to the point that i no longer cared if i lived or not. I had clinical depression, anxiety, Stupid high blood pressure, and was going into early stages of liver failure. not to mention a whole lot of mental health issues that came with that. 366 Days ago I would never ever had thought sobriety was possible. 367 Days ago I was absolutely sure I did NOT want to stop drinking. Somewhere in the middle of that I decided I wanted to live. My significant other had just come home from work and i knew That Drug and Alcohol services was open for another hour. So i told her i was ready and she jumped up and said ok. Drove me there and made me stay there untill a counselor could meet with me. I blew a 0.4 in his office and was immediately told to go to the E.R. Long story short I had a medically assisted detox (librium). Weaned myself off the meds on day 4 or 5(my memory is a little fuzzy) and never looked back.
Its not easy. Its fucking hard.
But know this It gets easier. And life is really exciting without it. When was the last time you watched a sunset and truly enjoyed it?
Stay Strong Guys!!!
|11-29-2019 08:32 AM|
Edit: I just spent the money I had to spend on beer buying tools I don’t need yet. Hole saw kit, drill set, and some cold gear headbands. $135 later I have something that lasts longer than a hangover, AND serves a purpose.
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|11-28-2019 06:18 PM|
Happy thanksgiving to those who are going through it too.
Love this place
|11-28-2019 06:14 PM|
Congratulations are due. It's a game changer for sure.
|11-28-2019 05:42 PM|
Stay strong guys....
11 weeks for me tomorrow
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|11-28-2019 04:17 PM|
365 days today.
Happy Thanksgiving everybody!
|11-28-2019 05:07 AM|
It's another test day for a lot of folks. Having other people around that are drinking makes it tough.
Have a great and uneventful holiday.
|11-27-2019 02:20 PM|
|H8DWINGS||holiday season bump.|
|11-25-2019 04:10 PM|
I had a kind of funny moment over the weekend. brother in law was in town and his dad bought a bomber of some chocolate beer by Rogue. Brother in law didn't like it that much and I was offered some by a dude who "quit drinking" a long time ago. I decline. conversation then went something like this
him: what? it's one beer. it won't get you drunk or anything.
my wife: he is training for a race.
me: silent. thinking of the irony of a guy who was a horrible drunk and has quit peer pressuring me to drink, or maybe trying to drag out if I've quit and have a big talk about it.
him: that's like 2 weeks away.
me: thinking "I have this 6 month streak going. I'd rather keep it going than waste it on some lame ass chocolate beer." still silent.
The next morning after breakfast he asks if I want to bring back anything from his trip. I said no thanks.
him: Not even some beer?
me: I'm good.
him you could have it after your race.
I'm wondering if he wants to know if I quit and why. I use to wonder these things and now I just don't care. Much like I don't care about people who drink soda or tea instead of coffee. If he wants to know he's going about it in a weird way (trying to find out without directly asking) and I don't care if he asks me. I find it amusing mostly because even his kids don't believe he has quit. Just quit drinking around them and drank when he was away. If he does he's learned to control it. I don't have that control.
That mantra works well. Also, stealing happiness from tomorrow. Plenty of people recently in my life unable to do things because of alcohol. Apparently it is the season for hangovers. Glad that shit is behind me. I'd probably be locked on the couch for an entire day if I went back.
|11-23-2019 09:40 AM|
I like your mantra COcamper, mine is one is too much and 24 isn't enough.
|11-21-2019 11:59 AM|
I haven't dropped into this thread in a while, it's nice to read some updates from folks and see others asking for and receiving support.
H8DWINGS- thanks for posting the link to that podcast, dudes hit the mark and it was refreshing to hear it from their perspective. Congrats on the training and hitting the 6 month milestone as well. Way to go!
ScubaTacos- that's a pretty awesome Christmas present you are giving yourself, nice work!
I know there are others that have posted as well, to each of you, nice work and keep on keeping on. The next month can be tough, as there tends to be lots of "opportunities" to test yourself. For me, waking up after a holiday party (or any day for that matter) feeling great and ready to attack the day, serves as a great reminder of why I passed on drinks the day/night before.
1/15/20 will be 2 years for me, so I guess I'm a little over 22 months. In that 22 months, I know I have faced 100's of excuses to have a drink. Problem is I wouldn't have A drink, I would have A LOT of drinks.
I'll repeat my mantra once again-
When I control my drinking, I don't enjoy it.
When I enjoy my drinking, I don't control it.
|11-21-2019 10:10 AM|
Today is 1 day past 6 months the easy way (5 + 6 = 11). Big race (marathon) coming up for me December 8 in Sacramento. Not drinking is probably one of the biggest reasons I've done so well in training and getting ready. no more sore Saturday mornings or stomach pains I can't figure out. Eating much better and focused more on what matters to me instead of getting home to drink beers. I have run like 6 of these and I've can't say I've ever felt better after this much training and just cutting out beer dropped my cholesterol like 40 points. I should really call for some lab work to be drawn and see what the numbers are before (and maybe after) the race. At this point I'm not even sure a celebratory beer if I hit my goal (run a marathon under 3 hours. 6:51/mile) would be worth it. I do still sometimes wonder if I could go back and have a few beers a few nights a week and stick with a "3 is the limit per day" however I see myself sneaking beers cuz no one will know all over again, or going for the strongest beers I can drink.
I was even able to put a few hundred bucks into savings this paycheck and before I'd spend that on brewing supplies or beers to drink/cellar and now I'm so far out of the loop I don't even care about missing out on the 2019 beer swap.
|11-21-2019 08:58 AM|
Sometimes I'll turn my music to speaker tapes while working in the garage. It's a bit weird but it's nice to hear some of the experience, strength and hope whether I'm happy, sad, or frustrated.
God willing I'll be 18 months sober on Christmas eve this year.
|11-19-2019 09:01 AM|
Watched this for 1 minute and it pretty much nails how it feels to get past the "fear of missing out" and now how I feel when I wake up. Heck, I might start buying beer to give to people late at night just for entertainment.
One thing I gathered earlier from the podcast was Chris Raab is talking about going to a music festival sober when he'd always gone on shrooms and excstacy. His buddies said they'd keep it away if he wanted but they "liked to party" and Chris didn't care. he said they smoked a joint and had a few beers and he was confused cuz that wasn't partying to him. They said "these are the party favors and the atmosphere is the party. For you the drugs are the party." which is pretty true for me and alcohol. I'd go RIGHT back to full drunk if I started up again. It might take a week or month to get there but I'd be drinking 6-9% beers on the couch all night in a hurry. fucking weird to think that too.
Chris Raab has apparently been sober 10 years. I guess the Jackass guys were into doing drugs a LOT more than I ever thought. Chris Raab was about 29 when he gave it all up.
|11-18-2019 02:04 PM|
What could you do with $5,000 next Thanksgiving? You could save that in a year without drinking.
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|11-18-2019 12:33 PM|
182 days so that's 6 months right? I thought it was in two days from now. AT least, I THINK I quit May 20. Last time I wasn't even sure when Memorial Day was.
|11-18-2019 09:57 AM|
Every morning I wake up feeling a little better than the day before. Makes me glad I didn't give in the night before
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