|Today 09:26 AM|
|Today 09:16 AM|
I quit 87 days ago.
The day after my granddaughter was born.
I quit for a few reasons. The first is because I knew I would become a nanny and would be/am watching the baby every day while my daughter is at work. I cannot be a drunk while doing that.
I was at the point that I watched the clock waiting for 3:00pm, 2:00pm, noon to grab a beer. I would kill a case of beer then switch to whiskey and coke. I would drink half of the half gallon bottle of whiskey every day. I would down a whiskey and coke then make another one to take to bed. I missed a lot due to being drunk and I could see it was taking a toll on my wife and daughter.
Drinking became my way of dealing with pain. I have damage to the L5-S1, C3-C4, C5-C6, C6-C7, C7-T1 and T1-T2. I also have Rheumatoid Arthritis in my hands, wrist's, elbows, knees and toes. My fancy autoimmune disease also causes my skin to burn like a bad sunburn. You could say I'm pretty fucking miserable.
I have other health issues that I thought could be related to the booze but those issues haven't changed. I went in for dementia testing and was told my memory issues could be due to the amount of pain I am in. Now I eat pain killers that don't work for shit.
I made the choice to quit. The first 3 days sucked but after that I am over it. I don't crave it at all.
I also don't break my scout anymore which is pretty sweet
|Today 07:10 AM|
Edit: buddy told me I earned the $250 shoes. I told him my XJ needs sliders so we can hit FORDYCE. Seems like lots of guys on here started with 33s and had a blast learning to fix and wheel so I figure I could start there and take my son (turned 2 Friday) with me and not have him know about my past like my brother saw my dad.
|Today 06:59 AM|
|Today 02:54 AM|
|Yesterday 09:18 PM|
|Yesterday 08:59 PM|
|Yesterday 08:55 PM|
|KDXSR5||One year down. Didn't even realize it until tonight. Spent the day skiing and snowmobiling. Have lost 40lbs in the last year (started at 216lbs). I feel great!|
|Yesterday 10:54 AM|
Are you qualified for Boston already, or is that what today's about?
|Yesterday 04:11 AM|
About to run a marathon at 7am. Woke up at 1:30 am instead of 3:45 and wouldn’t have it any other way. If you’re bored google California International marathon. I’ll be out there today aiming for under 3 hours for the marathon. No way I’d feel this good if I was still pounding beers and had to take a week off to sober up for this race.
Saw my wife’s aunt pass out on the couch Friday night. Made me realize what my wife had to deal with for years. Not judging her. I just know how tired it would get having to turn the TV off, put a blanket on, and know it’s going to happen again another night of the week. Not sure I’d put up with me like my wife does/did.
|11-29-2019 02:31 PM|
I’m convinced if I was still drinking my wife would have packer her shit and left this year. I am pretty sure I heard her tell me three different times she didn’t want to make me choose but she would. I don’t want my kid to have the relationship with his father I have with mine.
At least that is one thing I have absolute control over.
|11-29-2019 10:58 AM|
It's nice to never wake up with a pounding head and go through the day in a hungover fog. It's nice to know that now every decision made is one that is *rational with sober clarity.
Being sober reminds me of when I was a kid, when everything seemed more innocent, fun and exciting.
I'm convinced that if I was drinking, I would have lots of fights with the wife. Not that there's anything wrong with her, we're just on opposite political teams.
* I still make some irrational decisions but they are, at least not influenced by alcohol
|11-29-2019 10:06 AM|
When I started drinking I hated alcohol. I would pour half my drink down the sink at parties so i could fit in. It was a long slow process becoming fully alcohol dependent. But the time came when i could no longer face the morning without a drink. I had come to the point that i no longer cared if i lived or not. I had clinical depression, anxiety, Stupid high blood pressure, and was going into early stages of liver failure. not to mention a whole lot of mental health issues that came with that. 366 Days ago I would never ever had thought sobriety was possible. 367 Days ago I was absolutely sure I did NOT want to stop drinking. Somewhere in the middle of that I decided I wanted to live. My significant other had just come home from work and i knew That Drug and Alcohol services was open for another hour. So i told her i was ready and she jumped up and said ok. Drove me there and made me stay there untill a counselor could meet with me. I blew a 0.4 in his office and was immediately told to go to the E.R. Long story short I had a medically assisted detox (librium). Weaned myself off the meds on day 4 or 5(my memory is a little fuzzy) and never looked back.
Its not easy. Its fucking hard.
But know this It gets easier. And life is really exciting without it. When was the last time you watched a sunset and truly enjoyed it?
Stay Strong Guys!!!
|11-29-2019 08:32 AM|
Edit: I just spent the money I had to spend on beer buying tools I don’t need yet. Hole saw kit, drill set, and some cold gear headbands. $135 later I have something that lasts longer than a hangover, AND serves a purpose.
|11-28-2019 11:21 PM|
|11-28-2019 10:24 PM|
|11-28-2019 06:20 PM|
|11-28-2019 06:18 PM|
Happy thanksgiving to those who are going through it too.
Love this place
|11-28-2019 06:14 PM|
Congratulations are due. It's a game changer for sure.
|11-28-2019 05:42 PM|
Stay strong guys....
11 weeks for me tomorrow
|11-28-2019 04:54 PM|
|11-28-2019 04:17 PM|
365 days today.
Happy Thanksgiving everybody!
|11-28-2019 05:07 AM|
It's another test day for a lot of folks. Having other people around that are drinking makes it tough.
Have a great and uneventful holiday.
|11-27-2019 02:20 PM|
|H8DWINGS||holiday season bump.|
|11-25-2019 04:10 PM|
I had a kind of funny moment over the weekend. brother in law was in town and his dad bought a bomber of some chocolate beer by Rogue. Brother in law didn't like it that much and I was offered some by a dude who "quit drinking" a long time ago. I decline. conversation then went something like this
him: what? it's one beer. it won't get you drunk or anything.
my wife: he is training for a race.
me: silent. thinking of the irony of a guy who was a horrible drunk and has quit peer pressuring me to drink, or maybe trying to drag out if I've quit and have a big talk about it.
him: that's like 2 weeks away.
me: thinking "I have this 6 month streak going. I'd rather keep it going than waste it on some lame ass chocolate beer." still silent.
The next morning after breakfast he asks if I want to bring back anything from his trip. I said no thanks.
him: Not even some beer?
me: I'm good.
him you could have it after your race.
I'm wondering if he wants to know if I quit and why. I use to wonder these things and now I just don't care. Much like I don't care about people who drink soda or tea instead of coffee. If he wants to know he's going about it in a weird way (trying to find out without directly asking) and I don't care if he asks me. I find it amusing mostly because even his kids don't believe he has quit. Just quit drinking around them and drank when he was away. If he does he's learned to control it. I don't have that control.
That mantra works well. Also, stealing happiness from tomorrow. Plenty of people recently in my life unable to do things because of alcohol. Apparently it is the season for hangovers. Glad that shit is behind me. I'd probably be locked on the couch for an entire day if I went back.
|This thread has more than 25 replies. Click here to review the whole thread.|